A few months ago, I was sitting down wondering why my life felt so incomplete. I live alone in a house on Chautauqua Lake, and usually it’s peaceful enough to just sit there and think. I kept asking myself, “ what can I do to improve my life.”
On paper my life may seem basic. I have two great children, a job, a car, and a place to live. After thinking for awhile, I decided to aim higher for a goal of mine. I applied at a college, majoring in Cybersecurity. Days later I was accepted and registered to start. I was nervous, but prepared. So I thought I was prepared.
First week was great, I had time to work, take care of the children, and all the assignments that needed done. I started to to fall behind on a lot, besides the schooling. I couldn’t keep up with life outside of college. I started to hate my job, and my house started to get messy. I was becoming a zombie.
My days consisted of working, going to my sons practice, and assignments. I usually had things done by 9pm, and had an hour to relax before falling asleep. I had to wake up at 3am every morning to get ready for work, which was becoming a struggle.
I still have a problem with juggling everyday life, and the college courses. I know in the end my life will be better, but for now i will look for a better job that goes along with my major. I don’t have the social support to help me through all this, so it makes it a little difficult.
Just My Thoughts 